‘When you know who you truly are, there is an abiding alive sense of peace. You could call it joy because that’s what joy is: vibrantly alive peace. It is the joy of knowing yourself as the very life essence before life takes on form. That is the joy of Being — of being who you truly are.’ – Eckhart Tolle
Getting to know yourself is a journey.
Who you are changes throughout your life.
Your values alter.
You shift and transform.
But who are we?
When we get lost, as we so often do … how do we find our way back?
Someone once gave me this view.
He said the mainstream thought is “We are a body with a soul.”
He thought this was the other way round that “We are a soul within a physical body” – having a physical experience.
I pondered this for a while, quite a while.
Eventually I began to come around to his thinking.
Because how else could I describe the absolute joy and freedom I found at being outdoors. The wind in my hair, all of nature buzzing and burgeoning around me.
The emotion I felt the weekend my Father died. Not knowing whether to laugh with him whilst he was here or cry because I knew he was leaving me forever.
The smile that washes over my whole body when I see our cat basking in the sunshine.
All that could not be made up by a human mind. Surely?
Since my ‘awakening’ I have wanted to feel more fully.
To not just leap in to experience after experience for the sake of it.
To allow each moment to be what it may – to slow myself and and know me, shadows and all.
Because we all have them.
I have made friends with myself…warts and all. And it feels good.
How do I do it?
I took some time out to enjoy my company again. To begin to express myself in my own unique way.
I was honest with myself about what I truly liked and enjoyed instead of looking at what I thought I enjoyed – which was generally someones else’s opinion.
Sometimes I didn’t like me. But instead of shying from those feelings, I faced them.
Asked myself why this was so.
It was tough on occasion and still is.
It never ends this beautiful, joyous journey of self-discovery.
And I love it.
Ask yourself the tough questions this week. Some of the things you’ve been avoiding.
You may find a happier you at the end of that road.
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